I know that sounds ridiculous, but that's abnormal for us. I cannot stop crying. More than anything, I want him to know that I'm The Mist Is Rising - The Joe Perry Project - Let The Music Do The Talking mad at him. I don't want him to have to hide anything Stai Con Me - Bino - Mama Leone me.
I want him to know that he's not alone. I know I cannot make him change. I know it must be a decision he makes himself. But, reading the original post, I have this sinking feeling that the paragraph above doesn't mean anything to him.
Maybe he doesn't care if I'm mad or not. Maybe he wants to be alone. Maybe he doesn't want anything to do with me anymore. I come from a family of addiction. I have enforced the "if you wanna see me again, you must quit" statement, and I have tried the "whatever, I don't care what you put in your body" attitude.
Neither worked. It seems you are damned if you do, damned if you don't. I don't know if I should confront him with my suspicions, or if I should let him air it out himself. One of my biggest fears is that neither one of those things will happen, because he is shutting me out of his life forever. Thanks Star Yeah, I guess he does need a kick in the butt.
He says he is serious about getting a new job and the one he wants is a drug-testing position, so I hope that means that I Saw Her Standing There - George Martin & His Orchestra* - Off The Beatle Track is serious about staying clean for that new job.
But I guess I won't know until he actually gets the job. I'm selfish in that I don't want him to get into trouble that will cause the police to come to our house and search my stuff, too if it came to thatbut he may need that. I think he finally knows and admits to himself that I know that he is using, La Trapouille Des Efélants - Les Wriggles - Les Wriggles Partent En Live I hope that will make him think twice the next time he wants to I want to be there to support him as he goes through this process--he really hasn't had that in the past when he has "tried" to get clean--but I know I am enabling him.
I'm trying to be strong for myself and not let him walk all over me, and that works for a while, but then he suddenly has no money at the restaurant or store or whatever. I'm working on it, though. I knew that he had a past when I started dating him, but he told me he was no longer using.
It wasn't until I was already well "sucked in" to the relationship that I found out he was still using. It's been a rocky road since then I just keep hoping that the positives will continue and he will come to his senses. I know Star Good luck with your situation I hope that your boyfriend will come to his senses.
I've been to some group sessions with my boyfriend, and there are definitely success stories out there. Hopefully both of us will become one of those successes!! I'll be thinking about you and hoping for the best. Join Date Jan Posts When I read your thread then I busted out of the giggle. Always I will encouraged to everybody for Catch Me When I Fall - Let Loose - Take It Easy to from addiction.
Please ever go to wrong way. Always should want peace. Join Date Oct Posts 1, I didn't see the original post when Love Is Still Enough - Various - Jasons Lyric - The Original Motion Picture Soundtrack was first posted last year. I've read it several times since it was bumped back up to the top.
It gave me chills. I was that addict with a family of enablers. For tthose with addicted loved ones, read it again and again. It is more true than you could possible imagine.
Thanks to whomever bumped it. Bump If you are dealing with a loved one that is currently an active addict please read this. Join Date Jun Posts 5.
This will not make me popular, but apparently we are not here to help each other, so here it goes. I am the addict, the addicts daughter, sister, niece, wife and friend! Every single member of my addicted world received not one SHRED of help or even a dignified response to our illness.
Not a doctor or nurse, preacher or policeman helped my mother and sister when they were being beaten by their drunk husbands.
They made that bed, but it won't break that fall, no! The one thing thats said to the enablers is "you need help too!! What are you doing by putting these guilt filled ancedotes out for us "New Guys". Are you trying to HELP??? I did it because I HAD to, to stop a decades long tragic curse. I refuse to let Catch Me When I Fall - Let Loose - Take It Easy daughter see anymore!
Now it is my husband's turn Sometimes, just sometimes, people NEED someone to raise the bottom of that barrel!! But you only need to say it once, not a diatribe of guilt to the mothers and fathers who loved their children to death.
My sister committed suicide at I think of her everyday and I know I couldn't stop her or help her Hey I have spewed long enough, I am sorry, but I am tired. Catch Me When I Fall - Let Loose - Take It Easy just got back from my husband's suboxone induction.
Forgive me Originally Posted by Anonymous. Join Date Jun Posts That is heartwrenching and simply gorgeous. Well spoken, profound emotions from the heart and def. You have a gift for writing, not too many of us have that. It is rare. I know great work when I see it, and the way u describe and substitute mundance vocabulary into something interesting gains your audience, both young and old.
Writing is am amazing way to vent, and what addicts do is so true, maybe not always pretty, but most lie, and by telling the truth at least u are being honest with your true character, and that is the first real step to change, to be honest with yourself and others. OK, so u need those drinks, at least you were honest and can work on that one small step at a time. Never lose respect in yourself or your loved ones.
They will be waiting in open arms for u. It is tough road ahead, but just tell yourself u want it and never look back again. You will be amazed at what u can accomplish.
Stay tough! Join Date Jul Posts 2. I am going through the same thing with my bf except i have a 3 Catch Me When I Fall - Let Loose - Take It Easy old son. I just kicked him out and am dealing with all the same emotions. This poem is one of two thing that gets me through everyday. I love him so much and i dont no how it can still hurt so much after the things he has done.
I struggle everyday not to fall back into his arms, he was my only friend. But i feel so betrayed and abandoned and i will never be able to trust him again. He still thinks i should be with him but i will not suffer for his choices anymore. Join Date Oct Posts 1.
Thank you soooo much for posting these again. I am currently "letting go" of the addict I love This will surely be a long process. While reading these poems I felt that it is exactly what he is telling me, just without as many words. I am broken but reading this gives me so much more understanding than he can give me now. As with many things, here is a ton of stuff here that I totally disagree with which I would never do in dealing with the addiction of a loved one.
Robcol likes this. Join Date Dec Posts 1. I just sobbed my eyes out. Its so hard to let go, esp because the bottom of the pit could be death. But for myself and my 2 beautiful daughters, i have 2. Thank you for this.
Its a very lonely burden to carry. Join Date Aug Posts 1. Originally Posted by AnnieN. All times are GMT While you were gone Big Blue turned its attention on your family, which is absolutely not cool. You aim for its center It's Big Blue's turn to go sprawling at last, and your aim was Catch Me When I Fall - Let Loose - Take It Easy enough that its falling spire of a body—seriously, it's like somebody pissed off a replica of the Eiffel Tower made out of jello and teeth, this thing is ridiculous —only tears up the street further.
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You hit the asphalt like a sack of potatoes. The whole world's shaking, or maybe that's just Big Blue trying to get up.
Somebody Catch Me When I Fall - Let Loose - Take It Easy your shoulder and starts to shake you; you twist and phase out of reach, only barely resisting the instinct to blast a hole through Sam's face.
She yells something once, twice, but her voice is too muddled for you to make anything out words. She's wearing the Fenton Phones, which explains why she's not sprawled out on the ground bleeding from the ears like everyone else. You touch your ears, just in case, and breathe a sigh of relief when your fingertips come away green-free. Sam points. He's by your parents, your dad sprawled out and your mom on all fours, but at least they're responding to him.
They'll be fine. Sam presses another pair of Fenton Phones into your hands. Better late than never, you think, popping them in. A couple of jaw flexes later your ears ring clear, and you can Sam mutter to herself, "—ing serious bringing something like this out of the Ghost Zone?
Her palm's all scraped up and gritty with dirt. What is that thing? Something Skulker was hunting that got splashed by a couple gallons of Ecto-Dejecto.
A usual Saturday morning. We get rampaging slug monsters. Big Blue roars behind you though, and her grin slips. It shouldn't be much longer. After this though? Remind Tucker to hack his dumb suit again. Immer Nur Lächeln (Aus Das Land Des Lächelns) - Franz Lehár / Richard Tauber - Abschiedskonzert another word, you throw yourself into the air and lob as many ghost rays as you can at it to keep its attention up at you instead of down towards the bystanders who haven't run out of range yet.
You're a heck of a lot Catch Me When I Fall - Let Loose - Take It Easy than anybody down there; a deadly lightshow is practically a walk in the park for you. He appears on your left, holding up a silver cube covered in shiny green circuitry. You roll your eyes. If he was had to rip off Fenton tech, he could have at least changed the color scheme, wow.
You hope he's made some upgrades, because no way Catch Me When I Fall - Let Loose - Take It Easy Fenton Thermos could suck up something as big as this thing. You've got plenty of juice left. You swoop up over Big Blue's bloated body, upright and wriggling again, and begin to prep a blast that—fingers crossed—should blow a hole right through its ooey gooey center. There's shouting below you, and you want to ignore it because putting this thing out of commission would save everybody a lot of trouble, but that's your mom you're hearing.
Rookie mistake. You got distracted, focused on the heads and not the tentacles too, and it turns out the lasers Catch Me When I Fall - Let Loose - Take It Easy just come from Big Blue's eyes. You recoil but you're not fast enough, not nearly, and everything goes white. A scream feathers out between your clenched teeth, one hand clutching your face.
It burnsbubbling hot sticky wetness dribbling down your cheek. It hurts. You shudder, try to remember how to breathe. It only grazed you, it only grazed you, there's nothing wrong with a little pain, a minor burn is fine, you're fine, you'll be fine, move. You make Catch Me When I Fall - Let Loose - Take It Easy tactical retreat, let Skulker swing in with a few explosives to piss it off, keep it busy while you reorient yourself and try to tamp down the pain eating up your face.
Adrenaline, adrenaline's supposed to numb you or—or it's shock, or nerve damage, or something. It shouldn't be hurting so much at once, is the point. Stupid ghost half screwing up your vague understanding of human anatomy. Whatever, you're fine. You'll be fine. You wipe your hand on your thigh, resolutely not looking at the warm smear you feel through your jumpsuit, and shake your head clear.
Another tentacle comes swinging at you, but you phase through it to build up momentum for one furious punch. You're small in comparison to it but that doesn't mean anything for a ghost like you. Big Blue staggers with a roar, crashes once more to the asphalt with the force of an earthquake.
You don't give it a chance to get back up this time, following up with a series of bright bursts of energy. You aim for all those yawning mouths and don't hold back. Its shrieking dies in a garbled, smoking gurgle; it falls back to the road, dazed. Time to change tactics. There's no way you and Skulker are gonna get this thing anywhere near Central Park at the rate you're going. You swoop down, press the heels of your palms together, and crank up the ice as strong as you can.
Big Blue burbles in protest and one writhing tentacle comes within a few feet of squashing you like a gnat, but you dodge it easy enough. In a matter of minutes you freeze it stuck right there in the middle of a four-way intersection. Good enough, decent amount of wriggle room. Hopefully Skulker's keeping up.
Speaking of, " Skulker! Tamp it down now, Fenton, get a hold of yourself. He aims a huge, over-the-shoulder bazooka-looking thing you've never seen before at Big Blue's nearest head and pulls the trigger. The whine-whistle-boom of the rocket shorts out your Fenton Phones and the recoil is strong enough to shunt him into a nearby balcony.
The blast itself completely decimates an entire head and the central hub for half of its tentacles. If you hadn't turned the rest of its throats to soup already you're pretty sure it'd be kicking up a real fuss right now.
Behind you, all laid out and useless again, Skulker laughs. Not a chance. Now quick, while it's reeling—" He freezes when you look at him, mouth gaping. Just a flesh wound and all that. Think of the Black Knight hopping around on one foot instead of the hot wet definitely-not-blood smeared down your face. He wastes a few seconds staring at you, then shakes his dented head. Get both halves of it in position and the beast will be transported to an inescapable cage in my Lair.
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Hopefully it's supposed to do that? You kick off the asphalt for an extra boost, careen over Big Blue's squirming body and to its other side.
You slam the cube down hard into a crack in the street. It chimes like an Easy Bake Oven and begins to whine. At this point you're willing to give Skulker every spare Thermos you have just so he can upgrade solid tech instead of trying to reinvent the wheel.
You fly back to the balcony. Skulker's managed to pick himself out of the wreck of some poor schmuck's balcony garden. Apart from the smashed sliding glass door and a very distraught-looking cat, the apartment itself is untouched. You don't bother giving him any grief, just paw wetness off your face and ask, "How long 'til it's ready?
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You hear Big Blue gurgle out a pained shriek, and a second later throw yourself out of the way of a falling tentacle, sloughed clean off its boiling shoulder. It slams against the ground with enough force to throw everyone nearby off their feet, and its sheer dumb luck no one gets hit by a thousand spiny pounds of ectoplasm. A look up confirms that Skulker's focused on the bits most likely to hurt bystanders, the lasers and the flailing tentacles, but the rest of that tentacle hub looks like it won't last much longer.
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